Polly, I have only two other posts in these forums, and they were some time ago. While I was "cleaning out" my folders today, I decided to surf into this site again to see what's been happening. Your OP caught my attention.
I am married and have three offspring. The Lord has placed a prophetic calling on my life. Among other things, my wife and I are active in an addictions ministry (largely drunkenness and
pharmakeia, aka alcohol-ism and drug addiction).
The spirit of drunkenness is a spiritual entity; it is one of Satan's boys (angels). Call it a demon, if you like; more properly, it is a devil, an angel of Satan's.
God's kingdom is a kingdom of order, of legalities, if you will. Everything must take place in an orderly manner (although it often does not appear that way to us!). At this moment, Satan is accusing us before God (Rev. 12:10), BUT Satan's accusations cannot stick to us unless we have given him the necessary permission. Since no born again believer would knowingly align themselves with Satan, deception must necessarily be employed by Satan to gain the legal right to oppress us.
For those who are not born again i. e. unbelievers, God says he visits the iniquity of the fathers unto the children down to the third and fourth generations (Exo. 20:5, 34:7; Num. 14:18; Deu. 5:9). Have you ever heard that if your dad is a drunkard, then you are 20 times more likely to become one yourself? Well, of course! That spirit of drunkenness was given access to your family via its authority i. e. dad. And it will run roughshod down your family line UNTIL a believer steps in to stop the buck.
The way one breaks such a familial curse is easy:
1) Forgive those you believe may have sinned against you (e. g. your dad, for bringing that spirit into his home). This would apply even if your dad is no longer alive.
2) Repent of your own involvement (if only for your lack of action) in perpetuating the sin(s) of your dad. Present yourself as a living sacrifice before the King of kings; it is your proper service.
3) If your dad was a born again believer in Jesus Christ (and not merely assuming the label of "Christian"), then he, as your authority, would be the one to bind the strong man (e. g. the spirit of drunkenness), then cast it out of his house, all in the name of Jesus Christ.
4) Ask the Lord to take back the ground that had previously been given to Satan and to restore it unto the Lord's service.
Note that it is not about repeating certain proper-sounding phrases, as vain repetitious words are worthless at best, and dangerous at least.
Other posters here (God_be_with_you, and CCW95A) gave good analogies concerning the blaspheming of the Holy Spirit. Basically, any time one refuses the truth when it is presented to him (and Jesus Christ IS the Truth), one makes the bloodwork of Jesus Christ to be of no effect. In so vacating the bloodwork, one also vacates the grace and thus comes back under the law.
While there is much "bad advice" and other well-meaning but wrong info posted in these forums, as in the world at large, such does not absolve each of us from the responsibility of taking before the Lord all that we have read here. If we don't each do that continually, then the leaven will eventually destroy even the good.
Also, there was mention of seeing a psychiatrist. Don't waste your time confessing anything before one trained in the ways of the dead world. If you turn to a worldly authority ("'Save us!' they cried unto Caesar"), then you will indeed render unto that authority...
"I don't know what is going on, but suddenly I feel like I don't care about the Holy Trinity anymore and I suddenly feel like I don't care if I blaspheme...I lost my love for the Holy Trinity as well... I don't want to become an atheist, but I don't know why am I becoming an atheist....Please just help me instead of bashing me... Don't say anything like "It's all your fault", because it's not my fault.
Polly, simply, you are under attack. Expect it. Be prepared for it; "dress for success" (e. g. Ephesians chapter 6). Respond to spiritual with spiritual. Greater is he that is in you (i. e. the Holy Spirit) , than he that is in the world (i. e. Satan).
I feel like everything is very alright without Christianity, but I don't want to feel this way... I want to care about the Holy Trinity... What can I do now? I can't even regret the blasphemous thoughts... But I want to regret the blasphemous thoughts...
"Christianity" is merely a label, a WORD. "Holy Trinity" are merely WORDS. They are mere descriptions of the
SPIRITUAL REALITY that is raging in your life right now. Forget those labels and rather bend the knee to the Living God, 24/7. Don't trust yourself for the truth; don't trust posters here for it; don't trust your parents for it; don't trust your pastor for it.
What is going on? Am I possessed? My concentration got weak too and I've been a bit tired... I've been drinking a lot of green tea now everyday... What are the signs of demonic possession? Please tell me, I need to know...
Polly, you are asking the right questions. But again, realize that you are under attack - and do not be afraid! The Lord has not given his people the foul spirit of fear, but rather
his spirits of
power, and of
love, and of a
sound mind (2 Tim. 1:7). "Possessed" people don't speak as you are speaking, but those under attack do. BTW, are you a first born child? And I would ask, who and where is your head, your cover? Is it your father? Is he born again? Is he interceding for you?
The churches are scared to death of this stuff. But you, child of God, are not afraid.
Lest Satan should get an advantage of us: for we are not ignorant of his devices (2 Cor. 2:11).