Kiddo, the problem with ALL of us is two things: we all have an identity crisis; and we don't believe/trust/confide in the scriptures as we should.
Jesus died for us while we were yet sinners. He loved us first. He cleaned us up, and made us JOINT heirs with Him! Do you grasp that? The God of All (not just the universe) has caused us to be co-heir with Him! In the lamest of examples, imagine the King of Spain/Saudi Arabia/etc. making you co-regent! It just doesn't compute for me. But that's what we are, Rom 8:17.
If you believe the word of God, really believe it, that it's true, then when you recognize Who Jesus is, what He did for you, call out to Him, in faith, then the word of God says we are joint-heirs with Him.
Romans 10:13 (KJV)
For whosoever shall
call upon the name of the Lord shall be saved.
Look what that word "call" is in Greek: [I love 1.a.!!]
- Original: ἐπικαλέομαι
- Transliteration: Epikaleomai
- Phonetic: ep-ee-kal-eh'-om-ahee
- Definition:
1. to put a name upon, to surname
a. to permit one's self to be surnamed
2. to be named after someone
3. to call something to one
a. to cry out upon or against one
b. to charge something to one as a crime or reproach
c. to summon one on any charge, prosecute one for a crime
d. to blame one for, accuse one of
4. to invoke
a. to call upon for one's self, in one's behalf
1. any one as a helper
2. as my witness
3. as my judge
4. to appeal unto
5. to call upon by pronouncing the name of Jehovah
a. an expression finding its explanation in the fact that prayers addressed to God ordinarily began with an invocation of the divine name
I really believe these two issues, if once resolved, will fix any issue we have concerning God. He has made it a PERSONAL relationship with us. We just have to PERMIT His Name to be added to ours! "Abdicate, adopted son of God". His words, Gal 4:4-6, not mine. I'm not worthy, only He is!
If you don't get it settled between your ears, how will your heart every believe?
God bless sister! God loves you! Believe it!