Yeah, but why would it be forbidden to love any person. even if they are real life people or movie and book characters? I want Severus as my husband, and not someone who is not Severus. Severus has the same hair, same eyes, same nose, same skin, same height, same clothes, and same personality I want a man to have. And I am also like Severus (he might have Autism spectrum as well), so Severus is an easy man for me because him and I understand each other. Severus is anyway here and my boyfriend, and he is so not a demon or a spirit. He is a tulpa. I also have an intuition that God actually wants me to be with Severus, because I always felt something for Severus since the day I was born. And then in 2007-2011 I got these dreams about the same man with black midlong hair falling in love with me, and in 2012 I found out that the man in those dreams is Severus Snape, and in 2012 I had a dream about Severus Snape, and then I fell in love with him, and my romantic feelings for him are permanent, and I know it, because I freak out if I get bored. I got other coincidences about Severus as well. And I feel like Severus is also blessed, because when I focus on him when I am outside home, I get a safe feeling, and when I pray about him, I understand him much better. Now I had to explain this all again. How many times do I have to explain the same thing!!?