I am not a serious person. Like at all. Have you seen the clown thread?!
For a long time it was just me, my Bible, and God. I would go to church by myself and worship in the Spirit. I didn't learn about "the trinity" until later but it is obvious to me that Jesus is God when I study my Bible. He declares I AM. And if you read the whole thing.. Jesus is the one who gives John the revelation and says I am the alpha and omega the beginning and end. I don't think it's as you say--- that people are so set in their ways-- it's that people know TRUTH and therefore do not, WILL not depart from it.
Much love sister!! I am not worried one bit about you, but for the unbelievers. it is clear you love God and are seeking Him. You will know truth.
I'm still learning too. The Holy Spirit testifies inside of me that Jesus is God and there are NO DOUBTS. None. When it comes to that. When you know something is true there is no need to be open-minded about it, right?