Because I don't feel He wants me to. I feel He is going to heal me. The last treatment center I went to, I know it was Him who directed me there. I will pray again tonight...but my prayers for nearly a year have been more centered around Him healing me and having faith that He will, even without the treatment centers. I suppose I could ask Him the best path for me to receive healing. I would appreciate your prayers as well. I'm sure some of this has to do with me not wanting to gain weight. In essence, not wanting to lose control.