Please don't answer this with a generic, "of course He does," because I've heard that from so many before and it doesn't help. I kind of feel like God doesn't love me. I kind of feel like a reject a lot of the time. In fact, I'm terrified of God. I said the prayer multiple times- I just don't feel like I was really adopted. I cry out for His comfort and I just don't feel it. I try to read the bible- I have trouble reading the parts that talk about love because I just don't feel it. Are some people created to be hard hearted? God hardened pharaoh's heart, he hardened Saul's heart- how do I know I'm not part of His plan in that way? That's been bugging me for a while now.