Hi Group,
I wanted to openly share with you that I have started 40 days of praying and fasting. I started this on Sept 1 so today is "Day 5".
My pastor is leading our church in this right now. I took this to my christian book club and let them know that I joined this with my pastor.
My book club decided they wanted to join as well. I am starting a journal so I can log how each day goes.
Day 1
So encouraged and very calm. Then I was distracted with getting mad at someone. Then the calm came back over me.
Day 2
Very calm throughout the day, which is weird for me. I tend to lean towards being a high strung person even when all is well. I live on the edge of always being more tense / high strung.
Day 3
Now it begins. I literally start to hear these little whispers in my ear of distractions. You are stupid. Your family is a mess. Won't help. Stay mad at that person because that person is stupid and a mess and you should just cut them out of your life.... etc. I began to push through in prayer and it slowly went away.
Day 4 (My Wed night church prayer service)
I went to church for our regular Wed prayer service, but was distracted. Could not seem to relax. I pushed through anyway and did what I know to do, I just kept praying anyway. I held hands with a lady I have never met before and we prayed over each other... It started to happen. I kept hearing Let this woman be the light in the darkness for those around her. Let her take the light where ever she goes. Let her shine bright. It was amazing. I have no idea who she is or what she is going through. All I know is that God had me pray for her to a beacon in the dark, for her to be the light and to take that light where ever she goes. It was amazing. Then I felt relaxed and free. Went home and read a bit, and then got on my knees and prayed more. Then went to sleep.
Day 5 (today)
Prayed on my 1 hour drive into the office. HS was with me and I felt that closeness with Christ and the comfort he brings with him. I believe he told me to do something and I am praying about it. I want to be sure it was from him and I was not just thinking this. I am back to being calm again.
My book club has created a list called Broken Hearts Prayer List. We each put names on this list that our hearts are breaking for. We are going to pray over each of these people for the 40 days and we are going to expect miracles to happen in their lives.
I believe with all my heart God is going to move in a mighty way. Tonight I am starting my prayer walking on my street and praying for my neighbors. My book club is in my office and we meet on lunch hours. We are all going to take floors and we are going to start prayer walking our company floor by floor praying for all our coworkers.
I feel like an onion that is being peeled back slowly. God has been showing me myself little by little. More importantly He is showing me who he is. All we do is for his glory, not ours. All the miracles we will see will be for his glory and his kingdom, not for us. I am very excited and I wanted to share this with each of you as this forum has been with me and has been praying for me for some time now. I was such a broken mess when I stumbled upon this site. Fresh out of a dysfunctional abusive divorce. I was so broken. There are days where I still feel very broken, but I am choosing to not give into that brokenness. God has more for me and I thank you for the prayers and support and I think you for journeying with me. Now I would like for you to journey with me during these 40 days. I will try to get on daily and let you know how each day is going whether boring or great. I want you to journey with me.
Thank you.......
I wanted to openly share with you that I have started 40 days of praying and fasting. I started this on Sept 1 so today is "Day 5".
My pastor is leading our church in this right now. I took this to my christian book club and let them know that I joined this with my pastor.
My book club decided they wanted to join as well. I am starting a journal so I can log how each day goes.
Day 1
So encouraged and very calm. Then I was distracted with getting mad at someone. Then the calm came back over me.
Day 2
Very calm throughout the day, which is weird for me. I tend to lean towards being a high strung person even when all is well. I live on the edge of always being more tense / high strung.
Day 3
Now it begins. I literally start to hear these little whispers in my ear of distractions. You are stupid. Your family is a mess. Won't help. Stay mad at that person because that person is stupid and a mess and you should just cut them out of your life.... etc. I began to push through in prayer and it slowly went away.
Day 4 (My Wed night church prayer service)
I went to church for our regular Wed prayer service, but was distracted. Could not seem to relax. I pushed through anyway and did what I know to do, I just kept praying anyway. I held hands with a lady I have never met before and we prayed over each other... It started to happen. I kept hearing Let this woman be the light in the darkness for those around her. Let her take the light where ever she goes. Let her shine bright. It was amazing. I have no idea who she is or what she is going through. All I know is that God had me pray for her to a beacon in the dark, for her to be the light and to take that light where ever she goes. It was amazing. Then I felt relaxed and free. Went home and read a bit, and then got on my knees and prayed more. Then went to sleep.
Day 5 (today)
Prayed on my 1 hour drive into the office. HS was with me and I felt that closeness with Christ and the comfort he brings with him. I believe he told me to do something and I am praying about it. I want to be sure it was from him and I was not just thinking this. I am back to being calm again.
My book club has created a list called Broken Hearts Prayer List. We each put names on this list that our hearts are breaking for. We are going to pray over each of these people for the 40 days and we are going to expect miracles to happen in their lives.
I believe with all my heart God is going to move in a mighty way. Tonight I am starting my prayer walking on my street and praying for my neighbors. My book club is in my office and we meet on lunch hours. We are all going to take floors and we are going to start prayer walking our company floor by floor praying for all our coworkers.
I feel like an onion that is being peeled back slowly. God has been showing me myself little by little. More importantly He is showing me who he is. All we do is for his glory, not ours. All the miracles we will see will be for his glory and his kingdom, not for us. I am very excited and I wanted to share this with each of you as this forum has been with me and has been praying for me for some time now. I was such a broken mess when I stumbled upon this site. Fresh out of a dysfunctional abusive divorce. I was so broken. There are days where I still feel very broken, but I am choosing to not give into that brokenness. God has more for me and I thank you for the prayers and support and I think you for journeying with me. Now I would like for you to journey with me during these 40 days. I will try to get on daily and let you know how each day is going whether boring or great. I want you to journey with me.
Thank you.......