I really really need some guidance. I do not have a mentor. I don't know what to do in this situation.
I am working in this job in a short-term position where I am getting paid a "stipend." Thus far my assignments have been mainly doing a research assignment or a small assignment related to various matters/"case". I haven't been assigned responsibility for a case or matter to handle on my own. My role has really been a bunch of ad hoc assignments where I dabble in many different assignments and essentially help and assist the permanent employees.
Back in June I was given a research assignment which I looked into and completed at that time. I was given a pretty narrow question and I felt I answered the question. No other assignment was given to me and I was not told to take on the responsibility of doing the next task.
Now, three months later, one of the permanent employees ("Vickie") has approached me asking whether this one task, which would have been based on my research answer, was ever completed. I told her that the last I knew of what happened was that I gave my research and that the secretary had called somebody and that's all I know about where that ended up. I believe we were waiting on somebody else to do something. Which i then looked into and discovered (today) was never done. However throughout the day Vickie kept coming to me with questions about it, and I started feeling responsible. Like maybe i WAS supposed to have done this task. And i started to get nauseous and defensive, trying to "CYA". but after time being able to think rationally, I know that I was NEVER told to do the task. yet I can't help but feel responsible.
I am writing here today to ask for peace of mind and wisdom to know what to do. It's a fairly serious thing that this task wasn't done. I want to know why my reaction was to feel nauseous and want to throw up. Does anybody know?
I am planning to ask to speak to my supervisor tomorrow about the expectations of my role, and determine whether I am supposed to not only do the research assignment, but then be responsible for additional stuff, even though nobody ever explicitly told me to do it.
I really need Jesus to get me through this .i know it seems minor, but the way Vickie was coming at me today, it made me really defensive and caught off guard. She is bringing up something up from three months ago.
I also looked at my note that i made back at that time that essentially provides the answer to the narrow question, dated back in June. And there is also a note from the secretary explaining what she had done. But now the question I am getting now almost imply I had more involvement in this matter than I feel I had. As far as I know my involvement was limited to the research question. That's also what I plan to ask my supervisor tomorrow - to clarify my role in these matters when I am given a single / narrow assignment. I just need Jesus because I am feeling anxious and scared. I also don't know if it's normal to feel physically sick when something like this happens. Especially in a job where these people aren't even paying me a dime, and I won't be employed there long term. Like, why am I so concerned? Why do I care?
I just know that if it WAS my assignment, I would have been on top of it! I don't want my employers to think I dropped the ball.
As far as I knew, all my work gets reviewed by one of the other employees... Once I had provided my answer to them, that was my involvement. But this is not the first time I have had an issue with this particular employee. She strikes me as a scatter brain who puts things off to the last minute. And it makes me anxious! How does a Christian handle this situation!?
I am working in this job in a short-term position where I am getting paid a "stipend." Thus far my assignments have been mainly doing a research assignment or a small assignment related to various matters/"case". I haven't been assigned responsibility for a case or matter to handle on my own. My role has really been a bunch of ad hoc assignments where I dabble in many different assignments and essentially help and assist the permanent employees.
Back in June I was given a research assignment which I looked into and completed at that time. I was given a pretty narrow question and I felt I answered the question. No other assignment was given to me and I was not told to take on the responsibility of doing the next task.
Now, three months later, one of the permanent employees ("Vickie") has approached me asking whether this one task, which would have been based on my research answer, was ever completed. I told her that the last I knew of what happened was that I gave my research and that the secretary had called somebody and that's all I know about where that ended up. I believe we were waiting on somebody else to do something. Which i then looked into and discovered (today) was never done. However throughout the day Vickie kept coming to me with questions about it, and I started feeling responsible. Like maybe i WAS supposed to have done this task. And i started to get nauseous and defensive, trying to "CYA". but after time being able to think rationally, I know that I was NEVER told to do the task. yet I can't help but feel responsible.
I am writing here today to ask for peace of mind and wisdom to know what to do. It's a fairly serious thing that this task wasn't done. I want to know why my reaction was to feel nauseous and want to throw up. Does anybody know?
I am planning to ask to speak to my supervisor tomorrow about the expectations of my role, and determine whether I am supposed to not only do the research assignment, but then be responsible for additional stuff, even though nobody ever explicitly told me to do it.
I really need Jesus to get me through this .i know it seems minor, but the way Vickie was coming at me today, it made me really defensive and caught off guard. She is bringing up something up from three months ago.
I also looked at my note that i made back at that time that essentially provides the answer to the narrow question, dated back in June. And there is also a note from the secretary explaining what she had done. But now the question I am getting now almost imply I had more involvement in this matter than I feel I had. As far as I know my involvement was limited to the research question. That's also what I plan to ask my supervisor tomorrow - to clarify my role in these matters when I am given a single / narrow assignment. I just need Jesus because I am feeling anxious and scared. I also don't know if it's normal to feel physically sick when something like this happens. Especially in a job where these people aren't even paying me a dime, and I won't be employed there long term. Like, why am I so concerned? Why do I care?
I just know that if it WAS my assignment, I would have been on top of it! I don't want my employers to think I dropped the ball.
As far as I knew, all my work gets reviewed by one of the other employees... Once I had provided my answer to them, that was my involvement. But this is not the first time I have had an issue with this particular employee. She strikes me as a scatter brain who puts things off to the last minute. And it makes me anxious! How does a Christian handle this situation!?
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