Hi everyone,
I've been trying for a long time to read the Bible and feel the holy spirit. When I do I often find myself bored or just trying to get to the end of the verse or chapter. I know the word of God is supposed to be inspiring, uplifting and encouraging, but I find myself more bored than inspired.
Side note: I've been turning to the Bible to fight my addictions and lusts of the flesh. I read the bible daily even if it's just my Bible's App verse of the day. I also spend time alone just reading and reflecting. When I'm not sinning i.e smoking, being lazy just sitting around watching TV or just "trying" to do ANYTHING to keep my mind busy, I get really bored.
It's almost like I can't just enjoy spending time with God reading the bible.
Am I missing something?
My biggest enemy is boredom. If I'm not satisfying the flesh I feel anxious, agitated and regardless of what hobby I try I end up quitting because ultimately I want to sin and satisfy my flesh with cigarettes, pot, alcohol or porn.
I'm trying hard to just let go and give God control, but I fear the process and transition. I know it doesn't have to be boring, but all of the things that you get from spending time with God, reading the Bible and so on, Im missing. In short, Im having a hard time letting the Holy Spirit fill my time with joy.
Help me please
I've been trying for a long time to read the Bible and feel the holy spirit. When I do I often find myself bored or just trying to get to the end of the verse or chapter. I know the word of God is supposed to be inspiring, uplifting and encouraging, but I find myself more bored than inspired.
Side note: I've been turning to the Bible to fight my addictions and lusts of the flesh. I read the bible daily even if it's just my Bible's App verse of the day. I also spend time alone just reading and reflecting. When I'm not sinning i.e smoking, being lazy just sitting around watching TV or just "trying" to do ANYTHING to keep my mind busy, I get really bored.
It's almost like I can't just enjoy spending time with God reading the bible.
Am I missing something?
My biggest enemy is boredom. If I'm not satisfying the flesh I feel anxious, agitated and regardless of what hobby I try I end up quitting because ultimately I want to sin and satisfy my flesh with cigarettes, pot, alcohol or porn.
I'm trying hard to just let go and give God control, but I fear the process and transition. I know it doesn't have to be boring, but all of the things that you get from spending time with God, reading the Bible and so on, Im missing. In short, Im having a hard time letting the Holy Spirit fill my time with joy.
Help me please