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Up until quite recently i had been attending church. I was not a good christian though. I swore and i did drugs and most likely other things that were wrong in his eyes. I did not feel welcome at my church as i look quite alternative (i have blue hair and piercings and wear a lot of dark eyeliner) and it made me feel unloved and angry because i was just the same as them and they couldn't see. So i stopped going to church. Then i met a boy whom i started dating and I lost my virginity to him. I love him very much and we both would like to marry each other. And losing my virginity to him doesn't feel like a wrong decision. But my question is where do i go from here? I love God but i don't feel like i deserve his love especially seeing as i'm not sorry that i slept with my boyfriend and that i will continue to do it. I just feel so lost and i have no-one to talk to. Please helo
Up until quite recently i had been attending church. I was not a good christian though. I swore and i did drugs and most likely other things that were wrong in his eyes. I did not feel welcome at my church as i look quite alternative (i have blue hair and piercings and wear a lot of dark eyeliner) and it made me feel unloved and angry because i was just the same as them and they couldn't see. So i stopped going to church. Then i met a boy whom i started dating and I lost my virginity to him. I love him very much and we both would like to marry each other. And losing my virginity to him doesn't feel like a wrong decision. But my question is where do i go from here? I love God but i don't feel like i deserve his love especially seeing as i'm not sorry that i slept with my boyfriend and that i will continue to do it. I just feel so lost and i have no-one to talk to. Please helo