Christ said " the mind is willing but the flesh is weak..." , He knew us so well He told us what we are about and with compassion He was telling us that as long as we keep on trying, though we keep on stumbling, we can make it to the goal.
My stumbling block, and i guess i am confessing here, are Muslims. Not just the terrorists but many times i see them in the street and i resent them... when i see a Muslim woman covered head to toes in black it bothers me at times even just the hijab ... and when i read what they do to Christians today in the Middle East and Africa i get enraged, ready to strike at them for hurting such beautiful people. Yet, dealing with them one on one i love them... but i keep on falling in the same rage when i read how they just kill in a most awful way our brethren... i think of the village in Syria that speaks the language of our Lord Jesus, Aramaic, probably the only one left that is Christian and speaks Aramaic, and how the ugly hordes of Muslim terrorists just ran thru, ransacked and then threatened the villagers to either convert to Islam or die... one of the leaders said never, he was killed. Reading about how in Nigeria Boko Haram everyday kills specifically Christians, destroying churches, raping and kidnapping... i allow myself to get in a rage against this, i do pray for these brethren and many times ask God why he doesn't stop this, that they need His help and protection... though i ask all the time for forgiveness i seem to keep on giving in to the anger i have towards them ...
Christ told us to love our enemies... i know i should, yet, knowingly i can't bring myself to it ...
My stumbling block, and i guess i am confessing here, are Muslims. Not just the terrorists but many times i see them in the street and i resent them... when i see a Muslim woman covered head to toes in black it bothers me at times even just the hijab ... and when i read what they do to Christians today in the Middle East and Africa i get enraged, ready to strike at them for hurting such beautiful people. Yet, dealing with them one on one i love them... but i keep on falling in the same rage when i read how they just kill in a most awful way our brethren... i think of the village in Syria that speaks the language of our Lord Jesus, Aramaic, probably the only one left that is Christian and speaks Aramaic, and how the ugly hordes of Muslim terrorists just ran thru, ransacked and then threatened the villagers to either convert to Islam or die... one of the leaders said never, he was killed. Reading about how in Nigeria Boko Haram everyday kills specifically Christians, destroying churches, raping and kidnapping... i allow myself to get in a rage against this, i do pray for these brethren and many times ask God why he doesn't stop this, that they need His help and protection... though i ask all the time for forgiveness i seem to keep on giving in to the anger i have towards them ...
Christ told us to love our enemies... i know i should, yet, knowingly i can't bring myself to it ...