If you are weary or tired my friend take a Sabattical if possible... Ask the Lord... Just a week fishing, alone, or what ever appeals to you can do wonders... Both my Pastors have have to take one...
I read your testimony and see you may be a depress type personality or I am meaning a weak area where you may be attacked... If you ever feel that way again, hopeless, helpless, worn out... there is help from others by the Lord... I pray you have a good friend you can share your feeling with and be accountable... One who is wise and can encourage you...