After having a few weeks off from driving because of moving, and switching driving instructors, I get in my car now and notice I don’t like it!
I know I have had a fear of driving in the past but thought I got over it when I start to gain confidence after a few minutes on the road.
But I also think fear may show itself in other ways that I’m missing.
Not liking driving could be a subtle form of fear that is hiding behind the curtain of disdain.
I’m not a psychologist , but I have noticed some behavioural patterns that are self sabotaging.
What does the bible say?
Is this a tactic of the enemy?
Interesting. Disclaimer: I am not a psychologist and anything I have to say is probably just speculation.
Fear has a useful function if it alerts us to actual threats and we know what those threats are. It is debilitating when there is a disconnect between an identifiable threat and the feeling of fear. If you know what is triggering your fear, you can address the fear by addressing the issue.
I don't like driving if my car isn't running right. That is not fear. I don't like driving in stormy weather, due in part to the fear of the very real possibility of getting into an accident. I mitigate that fear by having developed driving skills for bad weather. I am familiar with how my vehicle handles in slippery conditions because I have practiced skids and recovery. While one can't predict or control everything, I am fairly confident when I drive in inclement weather because I have developed a toolkit of skills for that weather. I also pay extra attention to traffic around me to reduce the chance of someone else involving me in an accident.
When you get in your car and say, "I don't like this", are you able to say what "this" is? If you can do that, you can begin to address the "this" with a strategy.
Fear may be a response to a real threat, it may be a response to a perceived threat which may or may not be based in reality, or it can be a response to a false or confused signal, a bit of logic in the program that got stuck. These are pretty common human dynamics IMHO.
I do believe the enemy also uses fear as a tactic, though it seems odd to me that he would center that fear on an activity like driving. The other self defeating behavior you allude to could very well be an attack of the enemy. In some ways, I'm not sure how much it matters whether the fear is from a perception of a threat or from the enemy. I would focus on the question of what, specifically, I am afraid of and go from there.
Another question; WHEN does the feeling come? Does it come when you first get into your car? Does it come when you're in traffic? Does it come when you think of where you're going?
Don't know if my ramblings are helpful. If feasible, an actual therapist could help you with clarity; it helps to know what you're fighting.