Hi there. I'm confused about my own heart and whether I might or do believe in Jesus or not. Long story short, I've been out of church for about 8 years-the only years I ever went to church--and those numbered about 10 of my 40 something years. I am back attending mid-week service when I can, and I happen to have tomorrow off, so I'm going. Yes, same church. I'm posting here to say hi to all of you, and I want to put God first in my life. How do I translate to make that Jesus? I don't know if I beleive or ever did in my life, and I don't want to be a liar or dishonest. My agenda here is to not have one I want to know God, know good people who are believers, and stay aligned with that. I love being on the internet, so this site is perfect for me! So how do you know if you are Christian, and how do you cross to that side of the line for real with no questions in your heart or mind that throw you off course? I might add I was raised atheist, unfortunately. It's difficult to break out, but I'm a tough girl when I know what I want.