Free To Love

Discussion in 'Literature and Poetry' started by Godspreciouspeach, Oct 2, 2012.

  1. You know I don’t know what it’s gonna take
    I tried in so many ways to show them what they did to me
    How much they hurt me
    How I feel like they took a knife and stabbed it in my back
    And just keep twisting it over and over and over again
    Every time I see them
    Every time I hear their voice
    Every time the subject is brought up
    It hurts
    Why don’t they just see that Lord?
    How many times Lord?
    How many times must I hurt?
    Must I forgive?
    I am past the point of loving
    I am past the point of bleeding
    It’s their turn to bleed now.
    After all it wasn’t me who did this to them
    It wasn’t me who betrayed them
    I continued to love them in spite of it all
    I continued to give, I continued to believe
    That it would work out
    It wasn’t me who believed a lie
    And who keeps believing it
    Year after year after year after year
    It wasn’t me who let them down
    It wasn’t me who left, who died.
    But I might as well have
    As many times as they’ve killed me
    Refusing to acknowledge my existence
    My life
    Who I am and what I care about
    Not even caring enough to see it
    To give it a second thought
    To apologize
    It hurts, Lord
    And I can’t keep doing this
    I can’t keep looking past their fault
    And seeing their need
    I can’t keep loving them anyway
    Praying for them, anyway
    I can’t keep crying…

    I can’t keep forgiving them, Lord
    Just to have them do it all over again
    70 x 7 doesn’t work for me
    Surely we must be at 500 by now
    I know love doesn’t keep count
    But how much they must be counting
    As every day goes by, as every month goes by
    And they refuse to forgive me
    Refuse to move on
    To let go
    of something I haven’t even done
    I know I need to forgive them, Lord
    I just can’t do that anymore
    I am bitter
    I don’t want to be
    I just want the pain to go away
    I just want the hurting to stop
    The tears to end
    When are YOU going to do something about it?
    Vindicate me, for I am innocent.
    End the evil of those who are wicked, and defend me
    Cause them to see Stop them from doing this to me Lord.
    My soul hurts
    And I long to be cleansed,
    I long to be free from this pain
    of resentment
    of bitterness
    of hostility
    of anger
    of unforgiveness

    Forgive them Father for they know not what they do
    Forgive me Father, because I do.

    I forgive them Lord
    And if I forgive other people when they sin against me,
    You will also forgive me
    And then I will be free again
    to love.

    God is real.
    Be blessed,
    Sis. E
  2. God is real, he gives us the peace beyond understanding, even when we've been wronged. No matter how many times I've been knocked down, I will always choose love, for God is love.
  3. Bless God! I would hope that I can always choose to love. Hard thing, but a good one. :)

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