Discouraged, but seeking
Hey, all! I browsed through the forum a bit, and it seems like a wonderful place. I sincerely desire some form of Christian fellowship, and I suspect it's me, but the church's here in Southern California don't seem to like me very much. So, I hope to find it here. I seem to do better in forums than in "real-life" anyway.
A bit about me, I was raised by Christian parents. They were saved and all, but they, in kinder words, have told me they screwed me up. They try hard, and have good intentions, and I harbor little bitterness against them (I can't seem to get rid of bitterness for good... Keeps popping up). But I moved across the country and have grown tremendously on my own.
In fact, by the grace of God, I've learned a good deal of things that my parents shared their regret of not instilling in me back home. I've overcome suicidal tendencies, smoking, drinking (for the most part), and increased my willpower. I haven't overcome social ineptitude, however...
Anyways... Umm... Wow, I'm depressing, huh? Well... That's what I hope to change. I've been trying to read my Bible, but I never know what I'm supposed to learn, as so much of it is so familiar. I can honestly say I'm better now than I ever have been in my life, and I hope I can find somewhere I can be honest, and grow as a result. If textual fellowship is the best I can do, than that is exactly what I will do. So, hope I haven't scared anyone off, already...
Hey, all! I browsed through the forum a bit, and it seems like a wonderful place. I sincerely desire some form of Christian fellowship, and I suspect it's me, but the church's here in Southern California don't seem to like me very much. So, I hope to find it here. I seem to do better in forums than in "real-life" anyway.
A bit about me, I was raised by Christian parents. They were saved and all, but they, in kinder words, have told me they screwed me up. They try hard, and have good intentions, and I harbor little bitterness against them (I can't seem to get rid of bitterness for good... Keeps popping up). But I moved across the country and have grown tremendously on my own.
In fact, by the grace of God, I've learned a good deal of things that my parents shared their regret of not instilling in me back home. I've overcome suicidal tendencies, smoking, drinking (for the most part), and increased my willpower. I haven't overcome social ineptitude, however...
Anyways... Umm... Wow, I'm depressing, huh? Well... That's what I hope to change. I've been trying to read my Bible, but I never know what I'm supposed to learn, as so much of it is so familiar. I can honestly say I'm better now than I ever have been in my life, and I hope I can find somewhere I can be honest, and grow as a result. If textual fellowship is the best I can do, than that is exactly what I will do. So, hope I haven't scared anyone off, already...