As a growing Christian, people annoy me. More than they should.
I get stressed and angry and frustrated when I can't communicate. I basically don't know how. I thought I might be more tolerating but it's gone in the opposite direction. I feel riled.
For the first time I'm vexed and feel it( I used to be numb to emotions)
Just the other day, a supervisor who I used to shrugg off,at work annoyed me because she gaslighted me. She grilled me in front of everyone after a shift. I felt small . I was upset that she lied to look good in front of others....yet I need to work with her. It causes fear and I'm scared of going off the rails. I need to curb my temper.
But I love my job, yet It's put a rift between us in my mind. I don't respect her but I don't like upsetting her either...
So I toe the line... and I grit my teeth in the process.
I thought christianity would help me be more submissive. It's going the other way.
It's my belief People in authority should be more respectful and mature, .
I remember a time when Elders were more easier to get along with. They came to work to do a job without the need to cause trouble. It was straight to the point and I felt safe.
Brothers, sisters....
I can't put up with her, but I can't not submit to her either. I'm loosing my tail between my legs. I thought christianity was about submitting to authority, outer authority, I'm new to Christs Authority...and I'm pretty torn
Like Autumn Oddity said in her thread it's ideal to be alone. That's just how I feel, but that's just me. Christ is somewhere inside and don't know where
Xxxx
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I get stressed and angry and frustrated when I can't communicate. I basically don't know how. I thought I might be more tolerating but it's gone in the opposite direction. I feel riled.
For the first time I'm vexed and feel it( I used to be numb to emotions)
Just the other day, a supervisor who I used to shrugg off,at work annoyed me because she gaslighted me. She grilled me in front of everyone after a shift. I felt small . I was upset that she lied to look good in front of others....yet I need to work with her. It causes fear and I'm scared of going off the rails. I need to curb my temper.
But I love my job, yet It's put a rift between us in my mind. I don't respect her but I don't like upsetting her either...
So I toe the line... and I grit my teeth in the process.
I thought christianity would help me be more submissive. It's going the other way.
It's my belief People in authority should be more respectful and mature, .
I remember a time when Elders were more easier to get along with. They came to work to do a job without the need to cause trouble. It was straight to the point and I felt safe.
Brothers, sisters....
I can't put up with her, but I can't not submit to her either. I'm loosing my tail between my legs. I thought christianity was about submitting to authority, outer authority, I'm new to Christs Authority...and I'm pretty torn
Like Autumn Oddity said in her thread it's ideal to be alone. That's just how I feel, but that's just me. Christ is somewhere inside and don't know where
Xxxx
Help