Becoming a Radical for Christ... Again this is just for me just cleaning out my brain again! Feel free to read but it is kinda long... I dont know maybe it is because of my age...maybe because it is of my stregth....maybe it is because of my strong desire to set the record straight....maybe it is because there are so many hell bound souls in my world on a daily basis..I feel like I am fighting a losing battle. I think it is because I can feel my bones becoming dry, I want to be alive for Jesus. Wow I just sit and think a lot about how flaky I can be sometimes...how God must look at me and just shake his head. What happened what happend to my fire! It is burning so low...where is my zest for Christ. I remeber when I couldn't put the bible down and now I think it is on the floor in my bedroom. Whoa Caresse what are you doing! Time is getting shorter and shorter and the days are getting so cold and evil. Where are the ones with there lights shining! Where is my light shining? Is it even shining? I doubt it the flame is burning so low. If Jesus is alive and he is living in me why am I walking in defeat...what happened to all the Victory where has it gone? Now I am so into the habbit of saying tomorrow, tomrrow I will do it tomorrow and tomorrow never comes. When God tells you to do something then it is a right now thing not a tomorrow thing! Go and go now! I remember a preacher saying once " You can do it the hard way or the easy way. Either way it is going to get done" Jesus said: Isaiah 55:11 So shall my word be that goeth forth out of my mouth: it shall not return unto me void, but it shall accomplish that which I please, and it shall prosper in the thing whereto I sent it. Simply saying If God said it it has GOT TO HAPPEN! I need to become a Radical for christ when I was seving the devil I was his radical. What is so hard about standing for righteousness and holyness!! EVERYTHING! I say but God I wont have any friends God people will look at me funny God I would be invited to any parties God people will hate me God they will hurt me God I dont want to be cast into jail God I dont want to die God this and God that But through it all his answer is the same I will be with you! Hebrews 13:5 Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee. Never God? Nope Never! Definition of Radical: a person who holds or follows strong convictions or extreme principles; extremist. a person who advocates fundamental political, economic, and social reforms by direct and often uncompromising methods. So often I also think about all the possible souls I have lead straight to hell and it bothers me so much! How many Jesus, how many have I lead right to the path of the wicked and unrighteous! Give me one more chance and I promise I will tell them all about you. Please lord I am begging especially my good friend Kandi! If it wasnt for me who knows what her life would of been lord please forgive me and allow me one last chance. That is the most hurtful! No wonder I never fit in with the crowd I never was apart of them your word says to come out from among them! And I tried to stay and blend. 2 Corinthians 6:17 Wherefore come out from among them, and be ye separate, saith the Lord, and touch not the unclean thing; and I will receive you. Oh lord just forgive me. Help me to do right because I know there is nothing within me that is right or good help me to be a better christian a better and brighter light, so that someone may come out from among them who dosent belong and come back to there first love which is you I ask all these things in your most holy and precious name Jesus Christ Amen.