So, my wife left me in February 2013.
I know, it's been 1+ years already, and I should get over it, but I couldn't.
I had left my country of origin, gave up my career, paid her school debts, and bought a house for us, when all of a sudden, she walked out on me.
I was perplexed, angry, sad, everything at once and feeling-less at the same time.
I tried acting tough, but deep down inside I was totally battered and torn because of the issue.
I hoped for a year that she might reconsider, but she didn't.
I never treated her bad, which she acknowledged, and even asked her why then she left?
She said it was her fault, and that I did nothing wrong, but somehow I found it hard to believe.
Only recently 1,5 years later I talked to her, and it became aparent in my conversation why we split up.
My ex-wife had become judgemental, towards church, pastors, and people. And she started to despise everything. Not only that, but friends followed, and family.
And lastly, myself, as the only person that loved her the most!
She left me, and went back to live with her mom; and when I spoke with her recently on the phone, one way, a big burden lifted from my shoulders, knowing I did everything in my power to get her back; but the more, knowing for sure it wasn't my fault.
Yet on the other hand, a deep grief, and sorrow rose up.
The one thing that brought us together when we where young, 10 years ago, she lost;
and because she lost Him, she stepped out of the relationship.
It's been a terrible time, full of pain, and confusion.
Promises of a better future all where meaningless to me.
But today the curtain has lifted, and I believe that in this desert, God will have someone else very special for me.
It is peculiar to see, that my friends chose women because of their beauty, job, music interest, or other common interest. And some of them stayed together, and some did not.
I thought, a triple chorded strand is not easily broken; surely I will be safest to look for a woman that loves God just like me.
And the Lord blessed me tremendously with her, until the day she walked her own path.
This day, my pain no longer is about if I did something wrong.
My pain is about a beautiful young girl, that once used to be my wife, which I loved, and still love very very much; that no longer wishes to remain married, and had left God, left the Lord.
Yes, my pain is that she, which was a beloved of the Lord, sparkling in her beauty, now no longer holds true to that which made her so extraordinary beautiful!
And it makes my eyes tear and weep.
It's a different pain I'm feeling. A different sorrow.
I just hope that some of us, who had a wife/wives that once knew the Lord, will remember their beauty. Each one of them, and bring them to the Lord; so that He might complete His work in them, and that they might re-gain the love long lost due confusion.
It's a great season in the flesh, the economy is booming, spring is blooming,
but in the spirit, it is a dark season, for mankind tend to forget their creator in the midst of prosperity and wealth, and earthly happiness.
And mankind forgets why he needs saving for, because all is well with his soul, he thinks...
I just wanted to share this story with you.
God bless you.
I know, it's been 1+ years already, and I should get over it, but I couldn't.
I had left my country of origin, gave up my career, paid her school debts, and bought a house for us, when all of a sudden, she walked out on me.
I was perplexed, angry, sad, everything at once and feeling-less at the same time.
I tried acting tough, but deep down inside I was totally battered and torn because of the issue.
I hoped for a year that she might reconsider, but she didn't.
I never treated her bad, which she acknowledged, and even asked her why then she left?
She said it was her fault, and that I did nothing wrong, but somehow I found it hard to believe.
Only recently 1,5 years later I talked to her, and it became aparent in my conversation why we split up.
My ex-wife had become judgemental, towards church, pastors, and people. And she started to despise everything. Not only that, but friends followed, and family.
And lastly, myself, as the only person that loved her the most!
She left me, and went back to live with her mom; and when I spoke with her recently on the phone, one way, a big burden lifted from my shoulders, knowing I did everything in my power to get her back; but the more, knowing for sure it wasn't my fault.
Yet on the other hand, a deep grief, and sorrow rose up.
The one thing that brought us together when we where young, 10 years ago, she lost;
and because she lost Him, she stepped out of the relationship.
It's been a terrible time, full of pain, and confusion.
Promises of a better future all where meaningless to me.
But today the curtain has lifted, and I believe that in this desert, God will have someone else very special for me.
It is peculiar to see, that my friends chose women because of their beauty, job, music interest, or other common interest. And some of them stayed together, and some did not.
I thought, a triple chorded strand is not easily broken; surely I will be safest to look for a woman that loves God just like me.
And the Lord blessed me tremendously with her, until the day she walked her own path.
This day, my pain no longer is about if I did something wrong.
My pain is about a beautiful young girl, that once used to be my wife, which I loved, and still love very very much; that no longer wishes to remain married, and had left God, left the Lord.
Yes, my pain is that she, which was a beloved of the Lord, sparkling in her beauty, now no longer holds true to that which made her so extraordinary beautiful!
And it makes my eyes tear and weep.
It's a different pain I'm feeling. A different sorrow.
I just hope that some of us, who had a wife/wives that once knew the Lord, will remember their beauty. Each one of them, and bring them to the Lord; so that He might complete His work in them, and that they might re-gain the love long lost due confusion.
It's a great season in the flesh, the economy is booming, spring is blooming,
but in the spirit, it is a dark season, for mankind tend to forget their creator in the midst of prosperity and wealth, and earthly happiness.
And mankind forgets why he needs saving for, because all is well with his soul, he thinks...
I just wanted to share this story with you.
God bless you.