If you were truely guided by the Holy Spirit you would know that was not the case.
If you had actually read my first post, you would realise that my previous name was jonbanjo and that rather than being the athiest who cried, I believe Jesus Christ is for real and the Son of God.
I did cry once though. In very different circumstances. A priest asked something (I can't remember the words) and on just that one occasion something really weird did happen. I was sort of hugged by this overwhelming thing. I could feel its amazing power but it felt so gentle and I knew I was safe and I just cried. Whole thing only lasted a second or two but it was mind blowing.
Life didn't straighten after. In fact in terms of other things including my later problems with drink to the extent it has been over the past 10 years, I do wonder whether it was the Holy Spirit that touched me that day. If life had have straightened from that point on I'd have felt sure (although my heart still sort of tells me it was) but I find it hard to work out in terms of what has happened since.