I Feel like every time I come back to this website for Christian guidance, it's almost always about a guy I am interested in. I guess that is my Achilles heel so to speak. Today I felt like something had to give, and I was crying about the situation, so here I am. I have been SO blessed in the last half a year or so that I cannot tell you how amazing it is. God has saved me from a really dire employment situation, and blessed me with an AMAZING, coveted position just in the nick of time. Not only that that people I work with are great and I already am friends with many of them. However there is a distraction, and I feel as though this is me being tested. My office is located literally right next to the office of a single, attractive man about my age, who is into a few similar things as me. We literally can hear each other through the walls. I have tried to gauge his interest, but I am quite shy, so it is a drawn out dance. When i speak to him he seems to fumble over his words and not be able to put together a coherent sentence, but he hasn't asked me out. perhaps he is one to avoid dating a coworker (which is allowed, but some people are against it). But he is actually one of the sweetest guys I have ever met. And i don't say that very often. so the problem is that now my interest in him has developed into a crush and I am Really shy around him now, but I cannot stop thinking about him. It has started to interfere with my work. I do NOT want to take this amazing job blessing for granted. I was given this opportunity by God. But why did he place this husband-worthy guy who shares common interests with me, and who is single and available and seeking a relationship (i spotted him on a dating website i'm also on- we're a "match"), so close that we are literally next to each other all day, separated only by a thin wall? Why did He have to do that? Is this a test of my patience? I cannot focus. I find myself trying to easedrop through the walls. (I am ashamed to admit) I was so upset today that I barely got any work done because I was so focused on him that i was crying all evening after work. I have come to the conclusion that I need to follow God's plan for me. God gave me this job. I do not want to blow it because I was boy crazy and had a distracting crush. How can I focus on my work and forget about my crush? How do I pass the test? I need help because I feel so weak! I listened to a sermon by Joel Osteen in which he spoke about how you can either give in to what you want and face the pain of regret later, or you can deal with the pain of discipline now and be rewarded later. I feel this theory is applicable to me now. I do not want my work performance to suffer any more than it already has. Something has got to give, and I really would appreciate your kind wisdom.