I keep having fights with my mom because she thinks she is the best and very perfect and she thinks I am very stupid and ignorant and that I don't know things at all, even though I know a lot of things and I am intelligent, but she never believes me and she treats me like I am 5 years old even though I am 18. I can't hold my temper and I get very angry at my mom, and I can't stand her... Then she doesn't even believe in real Christianity, she only has her Lutheran ways, and I believe that not even prayers will make her become a real Christian like me. She refuses to get baptized again and she refuses to pray the same prayer what I prayed to get saved. What can I do? I really like to think about sexual things what I really like and I like getting this tingle when I think about those thoughts, and I don't want to be asexual or stop thinking about those things until I get married, but I don't even manifest those thoughts, I just can't make them real. Do I really need to stop thinking about those things even if they are not necessarily lusting? Lusting is also manifesting the sexual thought, not only looking at the person while thinking something sexual... That's just sexual desire, and I don't even idolize sex... But will I really lose my salvation if I think about sexual things and then I get this tingle? One day before marriage it can be possible that I and the future man can't even hold our sexual urges, so we just need to do it... Will I lose my salvation by doing these things?