Some background for this question: So, once upon a time, after waiting my whole life, I finally found someone who could truly see me and understand me. We were the only ones who understood each other. It was instant attraction, quickly growing love. We find the deepest kinship with each other. We could talk for hours. We could share our souls with each other. It was the deepest, most beautiful thing ever. I felt we were soul mates. Unfortunately, this person was not a Christian, and I had to break it off. Hardest thing I've ever done, and even though I pray, God still has not saved this person. Fast forward to now, I've been trying to move on. My "friend" has moved on because he is not religious and knows we won't work out. So now I'm stuck. What do I do now that I found something so deep and intimate with someone? I know that I will never find a relationship like that again. But I can't go back to anything else. I can't be satisfied with anything but the most intimate friendship. I am upset because I know nothing like this will happen again. And there is a person in my life I feel God is pushing me towards but I know we cannot have this deep friendship that I want. We could have a friendship, but it wouldn't have the kind of intimacy I had with my other friend. What do I do? I do not want to be in a relationship that is anything less than what I had before, but I'm afraid God will never provide such a thing for me again. I am afraid God will force me to marry someone I don't want to be with, or tell me I won't ever be in a relationship at all. After all, there is no guarantee that I will ever find a deeper soul mate again. I am afraid God will force me to settle. Are there any thoughts on this?