My anxiety is the worst its been in a long while.. I'm one,step away from a panic attack and feel I'm gonna throw up and I feel depersonalized.. Even though my life is okay.. I have my friends, a job I start tommorow and I'm in school... My anxiety couldn't have chose a worse time to come back. It really just came out of the blue yesterday... I don't have the strength to keep going with anxiety...of much rather be in a wheel chair if it meant being anxiety free. Id give up my art talent and wear a prosthetic leg or arm if it meant a piece of mind. Sometimes if actually rather be dead then fight anxiety and lose I don't want to do meds bc medication is 50/50..they may work and may not. I've seen people close to me t3'll me their experinece, one said they couldn't think, another couldn't feel emotions, and a friend of mind was lucky as it gave him suicidal thoughts. ....I just feel so unlucky. Why now? I hate I have this anxiety... I want to give up its too hard.