Why won't God help me. I've been in a horrible state recently and it has been bothering me for 2 years. I have this extreme social anxiety with eye contact. I'm afraid that my eye contact may come off as being weird or offensive to others and this has prevented me from working, socializing, it has RUINED my life.. I keep picturing the worst case scenario with others confronting me on this issue and me being a very passive person, I wouldn't know what to do and it'll be my worst nightmare. Now I've been trying to grow closer to God, reading the word, praying etc but I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know if I'm praying the right way and I don't know how to meditate on the word. I don't know any of these things and since I'm dealing with this social anxiety I won't allow myself to go to a church and converse with people. I'm extremely scared and I don't know what to do. I feel like God is allowing me to go thru this for a reason but I don't know how to get out. I don't know how to grow closer to God. I believe he is real but I don't know how to grow closer to him. Is reading the Bible and praying all I need to do? I don't understand, I'm in so much pain I'm in desperate need of his help. Please if anyone can give me a word of advise. Thank you.