when you're not happy . . . I have four kids, one of which is only 5 1/2 months old. I rarely get any sleep and when I tell my husband that I'm so tired, he says, "go lay down and take a nap and I'm going to take one with you." I tell him that we can't both take a nap with the kids up and around. He doesn't listen to me and takes a nap. So I'm up with the kids, being very tired and cranky while he's cuttin' logs. Then he wonders why I'm upset when he wakes up and finds out that I haven't been sleeping. I feel like I made a mess of my life. I got married right out of high school, when I should have gone to college and saved up some money, got a job, a house, then got married and had kids. But instead I'm stuck home with no degree, no job, no money, only debt and kids. I feel like a failure. I've felt like leaving my husband a lot lately. Then I realized that last year around this same time I felt the same way. Then I realized that the year before that I had just had a baby and was tired, very tired most of Christmas and all I wanted to do was sleep. Then I realized that the Christmas before, I had felt the same way and actually broke up with my husband (whom was my boyfriend at the time). It only lasted two weeks, then we decided to get married. What is it about Christmas-time and me wanting to leave? I just need a break! A long, long break.