With eternal torture in the mix, your god is playing favorites? I don’t like your god. In fact, I suspect that your god is fundamentally immoral.
No Favorites…all have an equal opportunity…He provides many, many chances within this life…(I know as I was an agnostic for 30 years raised by a naturalist father…my vocation is Clinical Trial Assistant…yup science!!!)
You do not realize the breadth of what you have implied here…and I know you do not like the true and living God…
Imagine for a moment such a God exists…if God loves you, and you want nothing to do with Him or anything He would provide…when you pass from this existence what is He to do with you…surely He is not going to force you to be with Him for eternity…so He has made a place where all of you can go…we call it gehenna…you having rejected His Lordship insist on being your own lord, deciding good and evil for yourself…
So you will find yourself in a place where your ultimate wish comes true….a place He has created where you will not sense His presence nor be bothered by Him or His….you will be your own lord there (just what you wanted)…of course you will be all alone because two lords cannot co-exist without conflict…there will be absolutely no light (because that was His idea), no fellowship with others (because that was His idea). No one to speak with, because speaking was His idea….No orderliness to calm the fires of chaos (because that was His idea), no water, food, touch, yet soulishly still desiring, etc., (because all that was His idea)…and yet you will never cease to exist…you will ever realize that you had every opportunity to seek and know Him and receive His grace but you would not…this is your torture, your everlasting punishment…You will always know it was always you who brought this upon yourself but will never cease to exist…He wanted all this for you but you wanted to be utterly apart from Him.
God takes no pleasure in this spiritual death you will ever endure…but it’s not too late…please, if this is your choice that is fine with me but do not encourage your loved ones to end up in that place…God only made the place because He knew some would never repent…God does not even take pleasure in the death (spiritual death is eternal separation from Him) of the wicked, how much more grevious to see you prefer such a destiny…