I've been suffering for quite awhile with depression and anxiety, (so has my mom). Back in January things got even worse when out of nowhere I had tons of pressure in my chest to the point it felt like I heart attack. It wasn't, however this pressure lasted up until last week. Though the stomach problems (that were the cause of it as well as anxiety) continue to persist. Ever since that day, however, I have not had a single day without fearing that I'm going to die that day or soon after with or without a physical feeling on my chest. I just can't stop fearing that I'm going to die. I can't even do anything that makes me excited or nervous or even something that gives me adrenaline or just makes my heart beat faster (like exercise) without my brain going into some type of panic and making me think I'm going to die. The conscious part of my brain, I almost always know I won't and that it's just panic. What this means is the problem lies with the subconscious, the part that is much harder to tell what to think, or to make go back to how I was before that day happened. Of course this isn't my (our) only problem. There are quite a few problems we're dealing with atm, financial is another big concern as well as my mom's physical health that seems to be slowly getting worse. I pray as much as I can and ALWAYS make sure I pray before I go to bed as well as thanking God in the morning for a new day and thanking him for my meals. I've also written several different prayer requests in these forums before. So, as the title says, what else do I do? I've been stuck in this same mode (before the chest thing happened in January) since I left school due to depression, bullies and lack of interest, 8 years ago. Almost every time it seems we are starting to get ahead something takes it or another thing away and puts us back to where we were, if not worse. I don't think I'll ever stop believing in God, however I can't help but have doubts some days. At this point, we pretty much need a miracle. I can't even work in my current position, but I'm also not bad enough to actually get disability, not that I would want it since I know I'd be able to work if this would just pass. Does anyone know what I should do, what I need to do differently? I know I can't make God do anything, but there has to be a reason why he's not "pulling the trigger", so to speak. Like I'm somehow still missing something that he's waiting for me to get or understand first. Idk, I'm just really confused on why we continue to suffer like this, and are slowly deteriorating. Any help is greatly appreciated. P.S: The reason I put this under general discussion instead of the prayer request forums is because this is bigger than just asking for prayers (which would also be greatly appreciated). I know there have to be others like us that are wondering why it doesn't seem like God is helping them. We know he is at least helping us get by, but never actually prosper or get better.