I have loved a lady for 9 yrs. It has just always been a romantic friendship. I had proposed to her but she hasn't accepted. Yet she never wanted me to leave. Within those years she has dated some other guys secretely. At first,we were so much in love that she never wanted me out of her sight nor any girl around me. I worshiped her, & practically,i served her! Later she started to withdraw. She would get home very late; never pick any phone calls around me,etc. When i confronted her, she accused me of being jealous and monitoring her. After some months, &a break-up,she would return to me. Yet she would later withdraw & the cycle would begin again. On the latest of her escapade, i had to sneak on her cell phone, & founda text she sent to a guy calling him 'honey' & expressing her love. I confronted her & she felt very embarrassed about my finding out. Since then,she has been 'throwing' herself on me,again. The problem is that i havenever stopped loving this lady & she knows (that's why she could always return). But i have become very suspicious ofher (because i know she isunstable & easily influenced by men). Sometimes, i feel very uncomfortable seeing her with men. I feel pain that doesn't go away easily when she 'sleeps out' & says she's with a sick friend. But i never disturb her with calls neither argue nor accuse her of being a cheat. Though, she does say i am a very jealous man. I feel she doesn't want to stay yet she's afraid of losing me. And she's aware that oncei love a girl, i find it difficult loving another. I never accepted her in my heart after her escapades, but she comes back & dotes on me. I know she never found what she sees in me in other men; but i feel that her problem is my being financially constraint (though she denies it being her problem). After the first incidence, i decided i could never marry a lady who left me 4 someone else but later returned (even then, i never knew it would be a regular occurrence). I asked what to do about her because she doesn't want me to go.