Wait ..Theres More. Hey all. At the moment i feel like im a very weak Christian ..and i dont know what to do. My life really is in a mess. 1) I've never heard God talk to me, at least i don't think i have. 2) I've never had a "personal encounter" with him. 3) Quite Importantly, I Don't know how to pray properly. I attended a Prayer Meeting tonight at church, Everyone else was shouting out loud, praying and singing in tounges too. But i can't do both the tounges and praying outloud. 4) I was prayed for, for the gift of tounges, but i need to let my tounge get loose, but my mind is controlling it and i cant change it. I immitated a couple of words in tounges but was hard to understand. I'm the only one who cant pray in tounges or pray in the spirit, i want to do it so bad, i just want to break free and ROOAAARRRR !! lol. 5) My Past problem, Lack of Self confidence, Shyness, Motivation, and all that stuff, it really is holding me back now, I started to break free, but at the moment i feel that i have frozen and may be falling back again. I really can't live like this, it does my head in. I just want to ROAR. Speak louder, clearer, with confidence and be able to speak to anyone without any problems. 6) Like many, if not All of Us, i have sinned. And i have slipped up too many times. But the sins are always stuck in my mind and come back to haunt me. I try to focus on God and my sins just come back to me.. even though i have prayed for forgiveness, i feel i havent been forgiven. 7) I also struggle to take my mind off whatever is around me or anything i've been doing / researching ect, i try and pray or worship and its just there.. Help? Finally, Just out of the blue, I started to think about my Ex-girlfreind and i realised just how nasty i was to her after we broke up. I feel really bad about it and lived with the consequences of my actions because we dont talk at all at the moment, but I have to appologise to her like NOW! So Thanks to anyone who gives me advice, and i would appreciate it any of you could pray for me over some of these issues. Thank you and God Bless.