Just thought I might post an update on my situation with Daniel for those of you who have read my original post and offered encouragement and prayer... Things seem to have taken the worst possible turns since that original post. I have tried my hardest to hang on and pray it out but things have just been so miserable for me. He is cold hearted and downright mean to me anymore. I swear I don't know who he is- this is so unlike him...I've known him for half my life and I have never known him to be this way- especially to me... He wants me to just hang around and be there when HE feels like seeing me or talking to me...I barely ever hear from him. And when I reach out I'm met with harsh words and rejection...but yet when I bring it up I am "pressuring him" to do too much. When all I am asking for him to do is talk to me every once in a while... He says that there is no way to work it out if we "stay away" from each other but at the same time when I try and be his friend he makes no effort and half the time he acts like he doesn't even like me... It has honestly been nothing but pain and downright suffering for me since all of this began...and I don't believe it's Gods will that I stand around and be treated like dirt. I don't know what has happened- I truly don't. And it has been devastating and heartbreaking for me. I know I heard The Lord in the beginning- before all of this happened- when He told me that Daniel was to be my husband...but now I feel like all of this suffering and tears shed have been for nothing because as it stands right now I cannot see a future for this relationship. Daniel says what he is giving me now (which is next to nothing at all) is all he has to give "at the moment" - which to me sounds like an excuse to keep me waiting around until he has more to give to the relationship. He has told me that he is not concerned with us right now, that he isn't even thinking of it or considering our relationship in any part of his life. He has gone back now and says that he has NEVER heard from God about me and that he is just trusting that I got a word from The Lord- I did, and he told me he did too a very long time ago, probably close to 4 years ago now- but now he claims he never heard from The Lord. I don't know, I just feel like he is just stringing me along and that he doesn't know what he wants...I don't know that he loves me at all anymore, I can't remember the last time he said or did something sweet for me or even nice. I don't remember the last time I even felt he was interested in me...it's been months. I guess I'm just coming to grips with relality...that I could have been wrong about what I thought I heard....but also I know that a person can goof off and miss their blessing. Which is what I think has happened with Daniel. The Lord tried to bless him with a wife who would have loved him and he was too busy worrying about all of the things he would have to give up when he got married. Too afraid to truly grow up. I am grieving the loss of a future I was so set on having and a promise from The Lord that hasn't come to pass...I don't want to say it never would or it will not because I know He is the God of miracles. But it would take just that to turn this situation around... Thank you all for your time if you read this far. I so appreciate every single one of you who offered words of prayer and encouragement or even some tough love. This is truly an awesome community of believers and I am blessed to have found you all. -April'Lynn.