I was a member of the same church throughout my sons childhood. My son also attended private school through the christian school our church governed over. I was also very good friends with the pastor / his wife and their sons who played sports with my son. We were all very close. I was also close to a lot of the leaders within the church. Then one day division started to brew in the church. I started to see the ugly side of the business that goes on behind the church. Most people only see what goes on in the church, but since i was friends with everyone I attended a lot meetings and saw the business side. My son saw things he didn't like, too. We then started to see compromise take part in the church. Long story short our church split and the pastor moved his entire family out of state. Everything that I saw really hurt my son and me spiritually. I stayed out of church for a long time and I think I was bitter towards all Christians and churches. I would go to church here and there but I would not commit to any one of them because I was hyper critical of everything with these churches. I now realize I was wrong in how I allowed this to affect me and I was wrong in carrying that around to every church and making them accountable for what I went through. This is something God to had to really deliver me of because I was so hurt by the church and some of the leaders. It hurt my spirit what I saw. It was not of God, in my opinion. It took me way too long to let it go, but I am very happy to say I have finally joined a church and back in fellowship where I know I belong. When I walk into this church my heart actually feels happy and I smile on the inside. I feel I am finally where I belong. God was so good to never leave me while I was going through this. He encouraged me so much, but I let the hurt get in the way. So glad He never gave up on me and loved me enough to lead me to the place that I have longed to be for many years. I feel I am in the right place.