I was watching 100 Huntley Street and they were discussing relationships and how women tend to go to relationships with men after another, since it makes us feel like we have value. ie: "you're beautiful", "you have a great personality", etc. Whatever makes us feel like we're wanted. The women gave a really good example of an analogy of having a broken foot: If you broke your foot, the sensible thing to do is to put it in a cast, levitate it and let it heal. You could take pain killers to lessen the pain and walk on it again, but then you are doing more damage to the foot and don't feel it. It is the same with our hearts. It needs to heal the same way a broken limb would need to heal. I have a bad habit of getting into another relationship right away because I very much dislike being alone. I have 2 friends; one I don't like to hang around for too long because it's really awkward - he likes me and yet he loves his girlfriend of 7 years. The other lives in Alberta for the time being, she plans to move back home to Saskatchewan. Otherwise I would be regularly hanging out with her and her daughter who loves me so much! That little darling I would just like to have a guy I could talk to about anything with, but most importantly read the Bible with me and not feel embarrassed about it. To know God is and always will be Number One in our lives and to never place Him second. To know that He comes first in everything we do. Unfortunately, I can't find anyone like that. I've put myself on Plenty of Fish and have found some Christian guys, but they never ever speak freely about God! I've posted it very clearly on my profile exactly what I am looking for in a Christian male and yet I feel like that part of me isn't being read. Am I wrong to seek such a partner in life? I can't have kids and don't plan on adopting since both of my sisters have sons and whoever else I may get involved in may also have nieces/nephews. I would just like to share time with God in a relationship. Is there no such thing? I'm also having a hard time with a verse: Isaiah 54:5-8 For your Maker is your husband, the Lord of hosts is his name; and the Holy One of Israel is your Redeemer, the God of the whole earth he is called. 6 For the Lord has called you like a wife deserted and grieved in spirit, like a wife of youth when she is cast off I thought He is our Father, what happened to that?