I can't talk with anyone close to me, because they only give advice they don't think will hurt my feelings. At a young age, I met an older man. Long story short, we've had everything in common from day one. A relationship blossomed, but it's somewhat extremely important to note that he was already married with 3 kids. The marriage was failing,and had become verbally/mentally abusive to the point the children would hide under the bed when mommy and daddy fought. I gave the children a love they had never seen before, and justified to myself that I was doing the right thing. Told myself that this man I love is a victim and his children needed me in their lives. Now, reflecting, I realize the severity of my actions. That's just background knowledge mostly. We have been together publicly for a little over a year now, and (surprise) have a little one on the way. We recently moved back in together, and things don't feel right anymore. I've realized that my child will always be treated like an outcast in his father's family, my child will not know his brothers and sisters. My child will be singled out. His brothers and sisters mother says they are not aloud to be around me, my boyfriend doesn't fight in fear of child support. I just don't know what to do, I feel like a failure bringing my child into this situation. I am unhappy and wake up feeling like my environment is evil. I want to go backand escape, but I have a child on the way.