Just last month I accidentally came across undeniable evidence that Joseph Smith copied the Book of Mormon from the New Testament and other books that he had in his possession. I was converted to the church about 20 years ago, served a mission & married in the temple. To make matters worse, about 4 years ago I became bored with regular Mormonism and decided I needed to go back to its roots and became a Mormon Fundamentalist, although I still attended regular Mormon services without joining any splinter group. I studied a lot and came to believe even more fully in Joseph Smith and the Book of Mormon. I even believed that I had to become a polygamist in order to be saved, which nearly happened but thankfully didn't. I became best friends with one of the main Independent Mormon Fundamentalists, and helped make Youtube videos to teach Mormon's the "truth" about Mormonism. About 2 or 3 months ago I was starting to realize that something wasn't quite right but I couldn't put my finger on it. My wife felt this too but also couldn't explain it, we just started having doubts. I started to ask every night in prayer that God teach me more truth and correct me where I was wrong, no matter how hard I would take it. Little did I realize how quickly He would take me up on that offer. I came across a passage in 3 Ne. 20:23-26 where Jesus while in the Americas was supposed to have been quoting Moses, but instead He accidentally quoted Peter in Acts 3:22-26, over 30 years before Peter even made the statement! This was the moment when I immediately began to dig deeper and I found a mountain of evidence to support the fact that the Book of Mormon was plagiarized. This hit me really hard, and stripped me of the foundation of all my beliefs. I shared it with my wife and luckily she saw the truth too, but she isn't devastated like I am. She feels more relieved & liberated. Because of this experience I have lost my ability to trust religion in general & I question everything. Most ex-mormons I have met either online or in person have become atheists. That scares me to death. I need purpose in my life and I need God in my life, but I don't want to believe in something that isn't real. I have bought myself a new NIV Study Bible with really cool footnotes that I like a lot, especially when it backs stuff up with historical & archaeological evidence. I have also watched a documentary called The Case for Christ that has helped give me hope that Jesus was who he said he was. But I still haven't found that peace and forgiveness that I'm searching for. I helped convert a lot of people to Mormonism and even Mormon Fundamentalism. I can't imagine how much damage I've done to lead people away from Christ, and led them to Joseph Smith and a fake Christ instead. My hope is that He will forgive me & that He will let me know that He is there. I don't just want to hope or have blind faith, but I want to actually know. I am still studying a lot and still praying. I feel like I'm in a very vulnerable place right now where I could go either way, but I want to be on the side of truth, no matter what that is. This is a lot to lay out on the table and I know this may take years to cure if ever, but any support or suggestions would be very much appreciated. I don't expect anyone to understand where I'm coming from, but at least I hope that I can find that peace & joy one day that many Christians seem to have.