Qustions on God and Suicide I don't know how to begin with this thread so I will get right into it. I have been thinking about suicide. I am a woman in my late thirties who lives alone, never married, and has suffered from depression for years. It gets better at times, but then it gets a lot worse. I am tired of fighting it, and am having some other serious problems going on that I won't get into. The thing that is so bad now is that my whole connection with the outside world is the computer and now it looks like I'm developing carpal tunnel syndrome. I am gritting my teeth against the pain to type this- I cannot imagine a world where I cannot type to communicate with people or work on my writing. But I'm getting off the point. Since I was raised a strict Catholic, I am a little worried about being stuck in a bad afterlife if I kill myself, you know, hell. I was really afraid of hell as a kid. I don't really believe in heaven or hell, but the truth is, if I go through with it, there is no going back. So I am wondering if there is any actual evidence that heaven and hell exist. I didn't really want to come here, because I have had a lot of bad experience with Christians- I became a born again Christian in high school and years later found out that the youth leader who led me to Christ and was instrumental in developing my faith was really molesting children in his church for years. That was the start of my bad experiences with Christians, but not the last or most devastating one. I guess I wanted to give it one more chance. I am thinking of hanging myself. I have everything ready and set. An article I read says that hanging is not too painful. All I have to do is tie the cord into a noose, put it around my neck, and step off the chair. Then I feel all my problems will be over. It's easy, but when I go into the bathroom with the cord, I hesitate. I guess I just want to talk and listen to any responses that I get.