Please help My life has been up and down lately...one moment i would feel happy and content with my life and another moment i would feel depressed and sad. My friend evangelized to me a long time ago and I accepted Jesus Christ as my Savior. Well, I'm not sure if I did, but he asked me to repeat after him and I did. Well I started being angry at God and questioning why my life sucks. So I stopped going to church and stopped praying and I even told others that I didnt believe in God. I did all that because I was angry at him and I was blaming him for my troubles. I feel kinda weird for saying this, but I've also resorted to "magic spells" to make me happy. I've searched up magic spells and wicca online and I actually started doing and saying the magic spells. I'm not sure if the spells worked or not, but I'm still not happy with my life. I want to be close to God again. Ever since I push myself away from God my life started going down hill and I started doing drugs again. Would God forgive me for practicing magic and wicca? I want to be close to Him again and have that relationship with Him.