Please hear me out. I have been a sinner my whole life. I've been an atheist. I know this site is for christians only, but i want so hard to change, I want so hard to believe. I have read the bible, but I still need help. It doesn't speak to me. I have lived morally, i have not hurt another man, I have not been dishonest or evil. I may have abused alcohol, and other substances. I may have had relations before marriage, but am I condemned to hell without question? Please don't ban me for this. How do you believe? How do you do it? How do I give up everything for that which I cannot experience?