I am struggling with anxiety too and I take Klonopin for it. I'm also take Keppra (for epilepsy) when I take both at the same time, it knocks me out and usually I am not myself. Its like being in a zombie mode. I experience blurry vision, slows down my brain activity and memory...there are also times I experience slurred speech. Its hard for me to communicate with others.
Also, I have to young kids 7 and 2yo. Don't get me wrong, I love my kids. But I am a stay at home mom and my husband works almost 24/7.
There are days I feel worn out but we manage to find a solution to controlling my anxiety.
We are fortunate we live close to a lake that shows the most beautiful view of sunrise and sundown. Since I am unable to drive, I ask my husband to drop me off by the lake. Before we get there I read some uplifting scriptures.
I ask him to leave me alone for a couple of minutes usually around 30mins. (Depends how bad my anxiety or day is)
I watch over the lake and think of nothing else.. Just watch. The beauty of the sun, how it feels in my skin, how the lake is flowing.
So whenever I feel my seizures coming or my anxiety. I remind myself the experience i had over the lake. How it feels, find the peace inside me and I feel Christ in me.. That He is there whenever I need Him.
Taking my meds might have some side effects but when I remind myself of the time I was at the lake. I immediately feel calm and feel the love of God. It's a experience I cannot explain. Although the doctors say that I am born with my condition, that it is genetic, that I will have it for the rest of my life. I never once felt that I could not be cured by Christ. For I know nothing is impossible if you have faith in Him.
I am so sorry you are dealing with all that. I love your solution... I bet that helps a lot! It is difficult to be a SAHM, isn't it? A lot of people do not understand that it is hard work. I don't feel like SAHM's get enough appreciation.
I'm not sure if I should try medication again or just let some time pass. I think my marital concerns are playing a huge part in this, also.