I believe in God and I believe that I feel him in my heart. I just don't understand the bible. I don't understand the meaning of life and why there is so much evil. I tried to watch the Passion of Christ and couldn't finish watching it. It was so too horrific to watch what happened to Jesus. I don't understand how the holocaust happened or how there is murder everyday. Why would God create us and then leave a tree to test us. Why does he let all of this evil happen? Why are we born to be tested? I'm really not trying to be rude, I just want to understand. I have prayed to God for answers, but I haven't gotten any. I just started reading the bible and will start going to church. I was hoping to see if anyone online could mentor me.