My Testimony?

Discussion in 'General Discussions' started by lizloves, May 25, 2015.


    So, since I have always been nothing but completely, 100% honest on my blog here, I figured I would go ahead and confess my past religious beliefs and practices. I also feel like writing this here will be a good way for me to let everything out that I have been hiding from people. It's time for me to share my testimony. When I started to lose my faith when I was a young teenager, I didn't just stay agnostic. When I was 19 years old, I discovered Wicca.

    While researching some random things, I came across Wicca. My first thought: "Oh, witchcraft? No way.. Not even going to read about that.. Too dark for me." However, I still clicked on that link.. Google, sometimes you can be a pain.

    For those of you who do not know, Wicca is a branch off of Paganism. Some wiccans practice witchcraft, but not all of them. It is a majorly confusing religion TO ME. You can google it if you would like to know more information, but I do not suggest it. As it can be appealing. However, I promise you that it is a disaster.

    Fast forward a bit, I'm ordering books from Amazon, creating a Wiccan Blog account, talking to Wiccans from all over the world, buying crystals, occult books and figurines, and praying to a goddess. Writing this out right now just makes me realize how lucky I was to get out of that life.

    I am going to begin by saying I never truly considered myself a Wiccan. I dabbled in Wicca. I studied it like I study for my college classes. I was so consumed by this religion that it became the only thing I thought or cared about. Honestly, I thought that it would be awesome to be able to call myself a witch. It somehow made me feel powerful and important. I learned about what they call "the craft" very quickly. (I'm very good at studying. My GPA can prove that ;) ). SO then one day I decided, "Ohh what's the big deal? I can perform a ritual." I'll tell you what the big deal is. It was not okay for me and it was most definitely a BIG deal. I did a simple ritual. I lit two candles. One representing the "god of nature" and one representing the "goddess of light". I prayed to them, asked them to give me what I wanted, and pledged my allegiance to them. Now bare with me.. because this is where it goes wrong. The second I blew out that candle I knew something was wrong. My energy was drained from me and I could feel my positivity (which I have a lot of, if you haven't noticed) was gone from my body and mind. I felt empty and felt as if I was just watching myself live my life. I was in my body, but I did not feel like I was living at all. Every day was me being negative. I was finding something wrong in every situation and I do not like who I was in that time. I walked away from Wicca after that because it scared me. However, like I said at the beginning of this post, I am an honest woman. SO I will tell you (sadly) that I came back to Wicca. AGAIN. Yes, yes, I know. You're probably reading this thinking that I am an insane person. Trust me, looking back on it now, I feel like I lost my sanity for a year and a half.

    So I went back to Wicca. Thinking that I could try again and make everything okay. I bought more books, read them over and over, and believed everything they were telling me. "Wicca is a nature-based religion," "No war has ever been fought in the name of Wicca," "Wicca doesn't believe in satan." These are just a few things that these books would say. All of them that I read said something of these sorts. However, again I felt that something was wrong. As peaceful and loving as this religion seemed, I just felt like a dark cloud was following over me all of the time. Every single time I read a book on wicca I would feel a sense of peace, but as soon as a would sit that book down it was like dark smoke was filling my lungs.

    And this is where we get to a few months ago when I vowed to never pick up Wicca again. I just woke up one morning and decided that Wicca was consuming too much of my life and I didn't like the way that it made me feel. That is where I believe God entered my life. That is where He began saving me. I gave Him up years ago. I turned away from Him, I denied Him in front of my friends, I even hated Him at one point in my life. However, the very moment that I decided to give up the religion that was turning me into a monster, He swooped in with no hesitation and saved me from myself.

    Temptation has been everywhere for me lately. Everywhere I go, I am reminded of Wicca. My TV shows that I watch suddenly have references to witchcraft, the other day I was reading a book at Books-A-Million and under the book that I had been reading for 10 minutes, was a book about Wicca. I walked by a store in the mall the other day and saw a shirt with a Pentagram on it. Temptation is everywhere and all I can say about this is that it is the devil trying his hardest to get me to crack. However, the other night I had a dream. And throughout that entire dream, I was walking down a crowded street. Every other person I passed turned to me and said "Do not let your faith be shaken." I can only think that this was God talking to me through my dream.

    I know that I just started on this website a few days ago. I don't even know if it has been a couple of weeks yet. And in my first post, I told you all that I am agnostic and that I don't know what I believe. I don't know if this is common, but I am going to spill my heart out in this post and tell you all something that has happened to me. I don't know if it is common for someone to work this fast. I don't know if it is common that someone can do this so quickly.
    But I am telling you all right now, that I have found God.. and He has found me. He has filled my lungs with clean air. He has lifted my spirits and filled my heart with nothing but joy. He has accepted me just as I am and He has let me know that I am loved. This is something that I have been looking for my entire life.

    I am so proud of the progress I have made in such a short period of time and I can't believe this is happening. (Or should I say, I DO BELIEVE?) I do believe. I believe in God. That is something I have wanted to say (and mean) for so many years.

    I have a long way to go. I have so much to learn, and so many years to make up for. I am so excited for my new life. I can't wait to see what God has in store for me.

    I know that this post was seriously ALL OVER the place. (When I get excited, I write super crazy) SO please, all of you.. stay with me. I need support and I need help still.

    If you have read this entire post, THANK YOU for sticking with me throughout the whole thing because I understand that it might have been hard to read. God is alive, people. He is here and He is good. He has saved me from so much and He is still saving me. Like I said above, temptation is everywhere. But He let's me know that he is not giving up on me. And He knows now that I am not giving up on Him. This is me coming out of the religious closet. This is me declaring myself a follower of Christ.

    Thank you again for reading, everyone. It means the world to me.


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  2. Wooooo hooooo! I am happy for you Liz. [emoji1]
    You are in for the BEST ride of your life. One that will get better and better forever into eternity! [emoji92][emoji92] [emoji92]
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  3. Again, thank you so much for your support! :)
    I am so excited!
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  4. I'm adding you to my households prayer list as I type.:) Time, IMO, is short so it is awesome that you have found the right path. I'm sure you have already been warned but it's worth the repeat: Get rid of all articles/books/paraphenalia used in rites/clothing/notes/blogs that have to do with this. Make a clean sweep and say a prayer revoking all portals you may have opened, knowingly or unknowingly, to darkness. Find a church that takes scripture literally and start reading scripture, asking for the Holy Spirit's help for discernment, clarity and understanding.
    May God bless you in your endeavors.
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  5. Thank you for your comment and thank you for adding me to your prayer list! <3
    I have gotten rid of most of my things, however I do still have some books shoved in the back of the closet. I've moved recently so they're in boxes. They will be leaving my home ASAP. :)
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  6. Just wanted to say congratulations! You have been and will continue to be in my prayers! I also am praying for your boyfriend as well!
    Blessings to you!
  7. Not soon enough. You know to remove them now drop what you are doing and go remove them and destroy them and renounce all ties to them and thank God you are His and praise Him as you do this. If you think this sounds rude, forgive me but do it NOW.

    Any jewlry, clothing, music, incense, sister I do not care it it was a rubber band you liked to use to hold your hair back when yoou did things it needs to go to and RENOUNCE THIS STUFF AND PRAY OVER IT AND YOU. Simply getting rid of them is not even close to being good enough. If it can burn then BURN IT.

    I speak of knowledge and truth in this. Do it NOW. Nothing is to little of a thing and nothing is too big of a thing. For you these scriptures are vitally important for you to do more then you ever dreamed. Believe me liz for "you" this is will need to work harder then most right now in this time. I am talking about getting His word in you. he ( the devil ) is a sore loser and you need to get strong in the Lord to stand.

    Here are three scriptures to make your new mission in life
    Romans 12:2 ....Read and Pray and Speak His word
    And be not conformed to this world; but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind that ye may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God

    Then you will begin to be able to walk as this....
    Galatians 5:16
    This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh

    This is mighty and important as well.......also as Jesus said take NO thought very careful what you allow to come out of your mouth. he the devil will be placing thoughts for you to speak in hopes of you speaking them and giving him a way into any situation and drag you back down.
    2 Corinthians 10:4-5
    4... For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal, but mighty through God to pulling down strong holds
    5... Casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God and bringing into captivity every thought

    Please do it now
    God Bless
  8. A most excellent of testimonies.
  9. Thanks, Juk! :)
    To me it isn't the most excellent. However, it is mine. And I am proud. My past doesn't define me any longer. And God has given me strength to understand that and get through this transition much easier.
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  10. I have already messaged you about all of this, but I just want to post a reply here and say thank you again for your help and concern. :)
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  11. Thank you so much! You've helped me immensely! Just from the conversation you and I had a few days ago. :)

    God bless you and I hope to talk again soon!

  12. Really great news and I am very happy for you. Please feel free to ask questions as the people here have a calling to help those just as yourself who have come from the darkness to the glorious light of the Lord Jesus Christ.
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  13. Thank you very much! :)
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  14. God bless you and keep you in the palm of His hand!
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  15. It's definitely more exciting than mine.
  16. We all come to God in our own way, I have come to notice. Finding God is exciting no matter what your background is. :) No matter if you have grown up knowing Him or finding Him late in life.. it is exciting for sure. I would love to read your testimony!

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  17. Thanks for caring. I was born into a Christian family but I believe that I truly accepted Jesus Christ after being scared into it by an evangelical conspiracy theorist.
  18. Wow, that sounds intense to say the least! I feel like you shouldn't of been scared into anything. That isn't fair. Have you tried accepting Him on your own? Every time I read something of yours it inspires me, truly. God works through you. I can tell. You are very wise!
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  19. #19 Juk, May 25, 2015
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    Thank you for all of the compliments! I have accepted Christ on my own, and I believe that I truly have accepted Him in my heart. I always had an interest in Christianity because I was raised in a Christian household. I used to argue with atheists on the existence of God, and the articles online that I looked up helped me believe myself. And when I read the King James Bible, I can kinda feel God coming out of it. It's so awesome, and I have never felt that come out of any other Bible version.
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  20. That is incredible! Thank you for sharing with me and everyone reading :)
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