Same-sex-attraction. Since I can think back, I have always felt attracted to other girls and women. This was also so when I was married and mother of two wonderful children. I liked my husband but I never had loved him. He had been a good husband and father until his death. I have been a widow very actively in my church as organist and teacher in the women's group for many years now; I but always have the feeling to have missed something. Yes, you will told to me as I know that the Bible speaks against homosexuality. I have believed this for decades by myself. And therefore forbade me every love for other women also if the feelings were very strong to this on both sides. My fear of disappointing God and Jesus was too deep. I think about this but today differently because I have dealt with the quotations from the Bible. I see more clearly now what the Bible meant really. Not homosexuality but temple prostitution and the adoration of heathen gods. Not a homosexual love relation but the withdrawal from God. Furthermore I love God. But I also love women. At first and I think to start with a lesbian love relation (without "sexual activities"). What did you think about it?