I am one of those people who don't reach out for help. I was raised to suffer in silence. For most of my life I told myself i was doing well, but I cannot lie to myself any more. I don't know anyone on this forum and I have no idea if anyone is going to read this, but I figured I would try and reach out here. I am not going to go into my back story because its long and depressing. Ill just saying I have severe abandonment issues and I suffer from depression, bouts of anger and anxiety. My main issue currently is anger. I can deal with being depressed, to an extent, but anger i have no control over. I also and addicted to porn. This tends to come in my times of extreme depression. When I start to feel alone I turn to it. After that I get mad at myself with turns into self loathing and rage which bleeds over to other parts of my life. From the outside it is hard to tell any of this because I don't want my family and friends to know the true extent of things, I don't want them to worry.. I don't know how to deal with any of this and i know its getting worse. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.