I spent most of my life hating myself and hating God because I felt that it was His fault that My life was so messed up. I did not know how to love and I felt unloved all of my life, and I hated myself and my life. I could not look in the mirror and I could not be around people because I knew that they were judging me. It was not about body image it was about my mental illness, and I knew that people just did not like me. I had a very distructive life and a very painful childhood I have never had any convidence in myself. I am a Incest serviver and a rape serviver, and I live with Bipolar Disorder, and PTSD. I also live with MPD (Multiple Personality Disorder). I have been a self harmer since I was five years old. I have attempted to take my life many times. I found the lord over twenty years ago and He has changed my life and I no longer allow any of my illnesses control me. I have turned my life over to Him and I no longer do the things I once did, because the Lord holds my hand each and every day and He guides me through my life. I love myself because He told me if he can love me unconditionally why can;t I love myself. He has forgiven me for all that I have done in my life that I held on to for so long that it hindered my growth. Now I am His and I do nothing without talking to Him first. The Lord is Love and He has tought me to not worry about me, but see what I can do to love others even those that are hard to love. It is not about me anymore. God Bless!!!!