The only thing I can do is be honest and confess, to God and to myself... I have loved a particular sin. It's lust for seeing women in men's magazines. The bible says I can't get prayer through to God, or He won't listen, if I cherish sin in my heart. So I have looked at Jesus, who gave His life for me. And I'm continuing to look to Jesus and the cross. I surprised myself when I let go of all my inhibitions about this, and I was honest .. God already knew how I felt about this sin before I did. I was trying to hide from myself how I felt about it, because I wanted to be right with God, and not admit that I am as in poor shape as I am in. Somehow I wanted to be right in His eyes, so I stuffed the desire I have for this stuff - but it eventually comes out in some fashion or another. My main desire is to be able to pray again, to have God listen to me and consider me and my prayer. This addiction is so weird, too. For 5-6 days I'm not lusting, and when I get the urge, it's too hard to handle on my own... so I try to walk in the Spirit. But I fail utterly. Maybe it's because I haven't confessed to God (until now) how much I've loved this sin over Him. I've committed idolatry and adultery. Since I was in my twenties. Twenty years later, the addiction is still as strong as ever. But I don't desire to break God's laws. I pray for God's will to be done in my life concerning this (and everything else). Such a struggle!!