I'm so lost & confused I don't know where to turn, I don't know who to talk to. My immediate family is not religious at all, we don't go to church and my mom is Catholic and I don't even know what my dad is. I think the last time I've been to a church was either Christmas or Easter probably 4 years ago. The past two years, all I've been trying to do is find myself, find my religion. I don't know where to start. I'm 20 years old, and I don't even really know the difference in religions, and I'm not even baptized. Sometimes it makes me want to cry... I feel like I've been doing something wrong. I've asked my mom to go to church, and she says okay, but we never go. I just feel like, by me not being baptized, or not going to church.. I feel like, when my time comes, what's going to happen to me? about a week ago, my friend committed suicide. And the whole week all I've been thinking about is death, and heaven & hell, and God and Jesus and everything. I can't stop thinking about it.. all I want to do is cry. I know I've committed sins, and I feel like.. if something happens to me, and my time comes, what's going to happen? Will I go to hell? I believe in God and Jesus and I love them and I want to go to heaven, but I see everywhere that if you're not baptized or don't go to church then God doesn't "see me" I just really have no information about the bible.. I just feel like I have this empty spot in me..