Hello fellow Christian brothers and sisters, I'm new to this forum and I'd thought I'd introduce myself to all of you. I am a very skeptic Christian with constant doubt as to why God has created things the way he has. God is great but there are times when my faith takes a backseat and I start doubting if God really cares about me. I know this is very bad and shows that I need to strengthen my faith more by learning from his word and seeking other brothers/sisters' advice. I came on here because off-late, I've been struggling more and more with my Body Dysmorphic Disorder. I constantly find flaws in my physical appearance and can't help feeling sorry for myself. I know this sounds very selfish and narcissistic but I don't want to be this way. I'm also struggling with my addiction to pornography (which most probably has become a way to deal with all the depression and anxiety I deal with in a day-to-day basis.) There are times when I wonder, why I had to be afflicted with BDS. It's a never ending torture. I pray every night hoping that the next day will get better but my subconscious sure does a great job reinforcing my flaws every day. It's a vicious cycle really. Various insecurities creep up, I feel sad and depressed, watch porn, masturbate, feel even worse, repeat the same process.