I am a new member to this site and want to share a little about myself. Long story short I was hospitalized twice because I thought that if I didn't kill myself early on, my punishment would be worse in hell. I thought I was destined for hell and Jesus didn't want me anymore. Since then it has been five months or so and I still feel alone. I cry out to Jesus everyday to say that I am sorry for all my sins and transgressions and that I need him in my life more then ever. I feel really alone and question the things that have happened in my passed. I just feel like I let him down and he doesn't want me anymore. And at times I feel forsaken and alone because of what has happened in my life. After reading the bible since my hospitalization I look back and think I may have been spiritually attacked in some way. It's like I'm in chains. I need to be rescued and set free. I love you Jesus so much. I need clear guidance. Can anyone please reading this help me and assure me that I am not alone.