I need help to find inner peace!! Hi.. I have a huge, maybe a bit freaky problem... I think im crazy or something See... I have these fantasies.... I wanna be strapped down, and be hurt and forcefully raped by someone... I want people to hurt me, to cut into me and experiment on me... I've engaged in some of these acts, and I masturbate furiously some times But now I'm starting to feel so guilty, almost ill because of it, and I dont know how to stop it... I cant control my fantasies, and I keep promising myself and god that I'll stop... but then my fantasies become so bad that I crave them and i can think of nothing else. I've been practising voodoo in the past, i dont know if this has got anything to do with it, but i wasnt this bad before that.... Sometimes my fantasies become so v icious that they seem almost real, like someone really is there physically hurting me.... Please, I've talked to some people but they just tell me that some people just have sexual fantasies like these... But im so afraid that god is gonna punish me and send me to hell for what im doing Im so afraid pleas help!