My faith is hurting right now. Nothing seems right. Spring is a weak time for me, because I did so many awesome things in the spring last year, before I became a true Christian and started taking Jesus Christ seriously. Now I want to do them again. My mind goes everywhere when I read the Bible and when I pray, and it makes me upset. It feels like I am wasting my time, but I know that I am not. My faith is being attacked on all four corners because of Catholicism (which I will never join, by the way) and atheism. But I am certain that my God is real. I am certain that Yahweh, and Jesus Christ are there, and that they love me. But it just doesn't feel that way. I find it hard to control myself. Why do I fall into the same sin every time, even though I pray, and I repent, and I feel like I mean it? Do I not mean it? It's like I talk about fear but I'm not even scared. If you guys remembered long ago, I talked about God telling me that an intimate relationship was something that I could not do right now but I should not give up (something like that. The song went, "it's bigger than you right now..." so I am still trying to find out what God means by that. But I know that it was God because I was minding my own business, and those lines caught my complete attention. I was not paying the song any mind). Remember how you guys said that I was wrong, and that God always wants to have an intimate relationship? Well, I know that He does, but I am not ready for it. I will keep on reading the Bible, and praying, and standing up for my faith, and going on this site. I need to listen to that song's advice, because I fear that if I don't, I will lose my faith. Good day mates.